Category: Issue #4
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This Autumn
Funny, the way we so easily think we’re in love. You’re always scared to admit hard truths to yourself. You fetishize your sadness, yet you always dread it. You can feel yourself sinking into who you were a year ago; it’s almost as if you lose yourself each day along with the sun. It’s autumn,…
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Notes From A “Sefeed” Girl
By: Sipora West The top Urban Dictionary definition of “Sefeed” reads: Sefeed means “white” in Persian. In American Persian slang, it has come to refer to white people, and to Persians who are “white-washed.” Example: Look at Nooshin dance! She’s such a Sefeed! Until this August, I only knew the word “sefeed” in reference to…
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mad woman manifesto
I am painting a master’s study. It’s Caravaggio; a beautiful oil blend with classical romanticism undertones and dark, stretching shadows. It depicts the Biblical story of Judith and Holofernes, where Judith saws off his head with a long, samurai sword. He belts in anguish, his face twisted and tortured. I find the image bewitching. I…
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mirrorball by michael im
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untitled by nina yu
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untitled by raymond zhu
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Me and my culture had a falling out.
shot by celina tang
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jawbreaker
My eyes were always too big for my face my forehead was too I never fit where i should have I still don’t. i am suffocated by the thoughts of the person I used to be. again, I run back to the warmth of the memories i made they grip my throat like an old…
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Self-Situationship
(cw: general mental illness, vague discussion of eating disorders/body image) I’m in an on-again-off-again relationship with myself. When we’re off, my brain is occupied by another angrier version of me. She’s cruel; unspeakably so. I have to beg her to stop, to hold back and yield her sword of ugly truths. To clarify, I’m not…
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Not Again
I do not want to watch The Shining again. If I do, it means I’m starting over. It means I have to introduce myself to someone new. It means I have to ask, what’s your favorite color? What music do you like? Have you heard this album? I recommend this song if you’re feeling quite…
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I Am Sorry Rose Tico – The Entanglement of Misogyny & Queerness in Popular Culture
By Elisa Penha Harassing Millie Bobby Brown is not going to make Byler canon. You are not achieving the levels of allyship that you believe make impactful change in the incessant slander of Millie Bobby Brown in defence of a ship—a ship that was doomed by a television show determined to capitalize on fan theory…
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TRIGGER WARNING: FAILURE by Reid Kalaw
I’ve started working on my college applications. I’m meticulous about it. I’ve watched countless YouTube videos; guides from ex-admissions officers, tips from current Ivy League students, and hacks from people who appear to be relatively qualified. I’ve finished my first draft of my common-app essay with a topic that’s been achingly thought over and measured…
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The Clock Ticks Too Fast For My Liking
Time spills out of my hands; sands of time. It is the waves kissing the shores; one, two, three, four. Constantly chasing each wave ahead. It waits for no one. New Yorker on the go. I am, so tired, of searching, wanting, waiting, for a way to slow, time, down. Hold myself close, while another,…
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The Art of Pushing Someone Away
Disclaimer: The author does not support the idea of pushing someone away, nor was this piece created to be followed step-by-step. Please reach out if you do need help; there is no reward for pushing others away. Within the article, I will be teaching you how to push someone away successfully and how to properly…
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Somebody Please Check In On Evan Peters – The Dystopia of True Crime
By Elisa Penha Normal People Scare Me. Tumblr Sexyman and school shooter Tate Langdon of American Horror Story: Murder House dons his soon-to-be iconic t-shirt with this once eerie, now pretentious text as he takes a melodramatic therapy session with his girlfriend’s father. Evan Peters is a powerhouse. He has put on a wide array…
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Malevolence
I cannot shake the feeling that someone is watching me. It is half past midnight, and my window is open, letting a chilled waft of air, saturated with the nostalgic scent of fall, gradually fill my room. I am lying under the heavy blankets of my bed, growing increasingly aware of how hot my body…
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These Horror Movies Don’t Need to Scare You—and Why That’s Okay.
The worst part of watching horror movies isn’t the disturbing imagery, loud jumpscares, or even the bad acting. It’s when your friend nudges you during the rolling credits and says, “that wasn’t even scary!” Usually, that’s what makes or breaks a horror movie for the average theater-goer. If the film failed to scare them, it…
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alloe mak ive always thought of us as a sort of impossible solar system in which each of us is simultaneously a sun and a planet; endlessly and helplessly orbiting each other. sometimes, when i eat next to you at lunch, sit next to you in the classroom, lay next to you in bed, watch…